ValeriGail
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I miss my life. I miss walking in the woods. I miss taking my kids to do crazy and fun stuff. I miss just having a normal day that starts and ends on a schedule. I miss cooking homemade pizza. I miss going shopping with family. I miss doing family chores on a Saturday. I miss going out on the town. I miss friends. I miss swimming in the lake. I miss riding a bike. I miss being able to do a sunset shoot every night. And other random normal every day things that you might not even think of, but I have.. obsessively. Even doing the dishes. And having a job.
My goal this year is to start getting it back, little by little. Each little progress adds up to a whole lot of progress at the end.
So what am I talking about?
Life. The gaining back of.
Currently I am living my life from my bedroom. I spend the majority of most of my days never leaving my house, and some never leaving my room. My health took a turn in the fall of 2013, and by spring of 2014, I had lost the majority of my mobility. In May of the same year, I took a tumble and broke several ribs. I never got back out of bed. I tried, but would only further injure myself or would hit another health crisis. By mid 2015, I reserved myself to this being how things were. By the beginning of 2016, depression was fully set in. Further complicating what was already a ball of a mess.
I miss my ACTIVE life
This isn't my first rodeo. Or my second. There was a brief set back after my first son was born. A couple surgeries and a young, new mom's will power got me up and going then. And again in 2006-2009... mobile photography got me up and going. Changed my life really.
So it's my third go round. You'd think I'd be a pro at this by now. [emoji4] the truth is, it's hard as hell. I will always be disabled. But right now, I still have some choice in which direction I go on the slider of my disability. I might not... scratch that, I will not always have the ability to chose.
I'm opening this thread as a tool for motivation. I wrote all of this to be honest and open, not only with you all, but with myself.
There won't be any miracles happening here.
Spoiler alert, It might get super duper depressing at times.
Lyrics most definitely will get posted.
Just in case you might have missed that...
Lyrics most certainly will be posted.
Nothing will match, ever.
There might not be a picture posted every day.
There may be more than one picture posted on any day.
There may be posts with no pictures.
There may be more than one post a day
There will be health related posts
There will be avoidance of health related issues
The pictures may always be of the same limited places
The pictures may be of nothing but mean everything
Emotions will be on display.
Pretty much this place is gonna be just as messy and unpredictable as I am.
And I also have no idea what actually will be posted here.
I would love to have all of you with me as I walk through this journey again. I could use all the support I can get. I did it on my own last time. The solitary experience isn't one I would recommend. I do not know how long the road will be, or if it is even doable. Only that I have to try. Here I go,
Start...
My goal this year is to start getting it back, little by little. Each little progress adds up to a whole lot of progress at the end.
So what am I talking about?
Life. The gaining back of.
Currently I am living my life from my bedroom. I spend the majority of most of my days never leaving my house, and some never leaving my room. My health took a turn in the fall of 2013, and by spring of 2014, I had lost the majority of my mobility. In May of the same year, I took a tumble and broke several ribs. I never got back out of bed. I tried, but would only further injure myself or would hit another health crisis. By mid 2015, I reserved myself to this being how things were. By the beginning of 2016, depression was fully set in. Further complicating what was already a ball of a mess.
I miss my ACTIVE life
This isn't my first rodeo. Or my second. There was a brief set back after my first son was born. A couple surgeries and a young, new mom's will power got me up and going then. And again in 2006-2009... mobile photography got me up and going. Changed my life really.
So it's my third go round. You'd think I'd be a pro at this by now. [emoji4] the truth is, it's hard as hell. I will always be disabled. But right now, I still have some choice in which direction I go on the slider of my disability. I might not... scratch that, I will not always have the ability to chose.
I'm opening this thread as a tool for motivation. I wrote all of this to be honest and open, not only with you all, but with myself.
There won't be any miracles happening here.
Spoiler alert, It might get super duper depressing at times.
Lyrics most definitely will get posted.
Just in case you might have missed that...
Lyrics most certainly will be posted.
Nothing will match, ever.
There might not be a picture posted every day.
There may be more than one picture posted on any day.
There may be posts with no pictures.
There may be more than one post a day
There will be health related posts
There will be avoidance of health related issues
The pictures may always be of the same limited places
The pictures may be of nothing but mean everything
Emotions will be on display.
Pretty much this place is gonna be just as messy and unpredictable as I am.
And I also have no idea what actually will be posted here.
I would love to have all of you with me as I walk through this journey again. I could use all the support I can get. I did it on my own last time. The solitary experience isn't one I would recommend. I do not know how long the road will be, or if it is even doable. Only that I have to try. Here I go,
Start...